"What Is Fame?"

What Is Beautiful? - What Is Perfection? -
What Is Fame?

I'm partly popular for my blogs, my rants, my views on life, and my ability to make people think and see more than one side of life. I want to open the eyes of a blind world...

And I'm starting today...

I keep hearing about all these blogs talking smack about me, and people saying this or that. HOW DO I REACT? - I Smile!

Why? DO I CARE? - Hell NO!

People only talk crap about other people b/c they feel badly about themselves. They look in the mirror, and they see themselves for exactly what they are. They arent fooling ANY ONE!

I look in the mirror, and I see BEAUTY, I see confidence, I see happiness, and I see success...
I've learned to walk past my haters and smile, and It took a LONG TIME to get that trait under my belt. Everyone has this fake front on 24/7 and I've trained myself to get past that.

People compliment me on my beauty, my confidence, and my ability to embrace my flaws, but that's not always how I was. and I don't want people to think I am stuck up, or conceited in any way... BECAUSE I AM NOT AT ALL.... however, I am confident... and regardless to what people think or say, IT TOOK A LONG TIME TO GET THAT WAY... and I'm not going back..
PEOPLE SAY (Haters Say!)

I CANT SING! - But I'm working on an album with producers who've worked with AMAZING and VERY TALENTED Musicians like: Lady Gaga, Robyn, Selena Gomez, Corbin Bleu. And they found ME! - I'm popular b/c I have my own sound, and I'm starting a new TREND for what is hott and popular. And my haters are jealous b/c I've got it and they DONT!

I'M UGLY, I HAVE A BIG NOSE, I HAVE A BIG FOREHEAD! - If I was ugly, I dont think I'd have agencies, photographers, makeup artists, clothing designers, hair stylists, etc. etc. all over the world, blowing up my phone and email to work with me, and I dont think I'd have 80,000 AMAZING FANS, who love me for my beauty and confidence? MY NOSE IS MY TRADEMARK, ALONG WITH MY HAIR... I think the real story is they are jealous that their nose is soo NORMAL and mine is ORIGINAL! My forehead is PERFECT, which is why I show it in my new picture.. MORE FOREHEAD, gives you room for LONGER HAIR... so na na na na boo boo...

I'M A FAGGOT, MY STYLE IS STUPID! - this one goes back to the last one, ITS ALL ABOUT EMBRACING WHO YOU ARE AS A PERSON, and I am comfortable with my body and in my own skin, I dont care what you think of me, or what you think of my boyfriend. Or what I wear, dont be jealous b/c you dont have the confidence or security with your own body to wear what you REALLY want or be YOUR self... I do what I want, and I could give a flying SHIT less what other people think of it!
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OK I'M DONE WITH THE HATER SIDE OF THINGS... (they arent important at all!) just wanted you guys to see things how I felt about them, so you could understand...
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Now for the heartfelt, ultra revealing exclusive you all want to read about.
In highschool, I was super nerdy, no style, not very popular (hey lets be honest!) I didnt have that many friends, DIDNT CARE! didnt want any.. I did my own thing and stuck to myself. I had a few close friends. and I still have MOST OF THEM IN MY LIFE TODAY... I will always love them.
In life I have come to realize there are FAKE friends, and REAL friends, and I've finally gotten all the FAKE ones out of my life, (see my top friends!)
I moved to Texas with nothing, no REAL friends from home, just some clothes, WHY? to start over, to FIND MYSELF, find my carreer, and realize what I wanted out of life. I moved to Texas so I could GROW UP! and I think that I did that..
I found MYSELF, I bloomed like a flower, I taught myself to see the beauty in myself and every one around me, or to see the UGLINESS in people, and some of the closest people to me at the time were the UGLIEST!
What YOU guys see from the outside, versus what things look like on the inside, are two completely different stories..
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU LOOK AT ME? (lets break it down!)
1 - Famous2 - Pretty, Gorgeous, Stunning, Handsome, Flawless3 - Talented, Aspiring, Role Modelesque, etc.
and I guess where I am going with this, is for you guys to believe that I had to kinda re-model myself into that character. EXACTLY... I created a character, much like a movie character or anything else for that matter. I created a persona.
But that persona at first was SOMEONE I wanted to be like, (circa 2 years ago.) when I first created myspace, it was all about making myself look better than I really was. And making people believe I was extraordinary.. (but I didnt believe it myself!) I had horrible flaws, and my persona covered them up. I had bad self esteem, extremely insecure and no self confidence what so ever.
Granted at the time I created myspace, I considered a professional photoshoot to be a friend coming over to my house and taking pics of me... (I'VE MOVED ON TO STUDIO'S, PAYCHECKS, AND MAGAZINE AD'S NOW!)
Its a great feeling to look back at that sad miserable person, b/c I can see that I was basically in a cage, I knew what I wanted to be, but I didnt know how to ACHIEVE it.
What I am trying to get to is....OR MY POINT IS.......
DONT LET ANYONE EVER TELL YOU, YOU ARENT GOOD ENOUGH, OR THAT YOU CAN NOT SUCCEED.... DONT EVER LET ANYONE TELL YOU THAT YOU ARENT PRETTY... or ARENT SMART.... or ARENT TALL ENOUGH.... THIN ENOUGH.... or even TALENTED ENOUGH to make your dreams a reality....
B/C I am here NOW standing before you, LIVING PROOF that you can do what EVER your mind can imagine....
IF YOU WANT TO BE A MODEL.... work on it, practice, take lots of pics, send them to agencies, do what you have to do to make your dreams a reality.. I went through HELL to get my face out in the world, and I still do.. I have more HATERS than anyone else on the internet.... and WHY? b/c they are fucking JEALOUS of me, its the truth... THEY ARE JEALOUS that they've tried to tear me down for 2 years.. and I've done more than ANY OF THEM EVER WILL IN THEIR ENTIRE LIFE... in a simple 2 years of my life... and I've just BEGUN! Dont let ANYONE stop you from your dreams...
IF YOU WANT TO BE A SINGER.... then by all means take a laptop mic and jump in your bathroom and do it, garageband that shit, to get you started.. I can name about 20 people that started that way, who are MILLIONAIRES NOW! dont let anyone EVER stop you...
IF YOU WANT TO BE IN MOVIES.... make a youtube account and show people you have the talent....

THE POINT OF THIS BLOG IS..... people constantly ask me, HOW I DID THIS? or what got me started.... or blah blah blah... and the answer is simply:
DETERMINATION!
when you put your mind to something, they ONLY person that can hold you back is YOURSELF...
I MAY NOT BE WHAT EVERYONE SEE'S AS BEAUTIFUL.... but I know that every where I go, and when I sleep at night, I know I look good, and I dont lose a min or rest over it.
I KNOW PERFECTION DOES NOT EXIST.... and I dont chase after it by any means... I see all these stupid PERFECTION GROUPS on myspace, and then I look at all their "MEMBERS" and I think to myself "How Pathetic" those people are, they are all photoshopped to hell, and probably have more insecurities than a chubby girl, in a bulimic clinic. I just wonder when they will WAKE UP and realize they arent perfect, and NO ONE thinks they are. All of those groups are filled with the most Insecure and Lonely kids on the internet. And they actually hate themselves so much that they do all that shit to themselves and their pictures to make people think they are better than they really are... TRUST ME, I'VE BEEN THERE...
Dont change yourself to match what the crowd thinks is beautiful... DEFINE IT YOURSELF!
AND THAT IS THE KEY TO SUCCESS!

I hope this actually helped some people... Or inspired someone... Otherwise, it was just a great venting journal entry for me... I just want to Inspire and Create in this world full of FAKE!

Perfection is A Goal, Not a Reality

...is A Goal, Not a Reality

Sometimes you may think that you need to be perfect that you cannot make mistakes.

At these times you put so much pressure on yourself.

Try to realize that you are like everyone else-- capable of reaching great potential but not capable of being perfect.

Just do your best and realize that this is not enough.

Don't compare yourself to anyone

Be happy to be the wonderful unique, very special person that you are.

'Is There Such Thing As Perfect?"

" P E R F E C T I O N "

What is Perfection?

Does perfection exist? What is the true meaning of perfection. And why do so many people try to be perfect if the concept does not exist.

As much as we want everything in our lives to be perfect. Perfection does not exist. If you asked me to define perfection I would tell you in my eyes perfection is trying your best and taking each day one day at time. If you’re not satisfied, then I would tell you there is no point in getting upset because perfection does not exist. I would tell you to try harder next time and keep trying till you are satisfied with your accomplishments. But don’t stress yourself by trying too hard because remember perfection does not exist. You know you have reached human perfection when your heart tells you so. You’ll feel a sense of pride travel throughout your soul.


Don’t live life and waste precious moments worrying or being angry of what you have not become or accomplished. Take those moments and used them to celebrate with your love ones. Celebrate all the things you have become and embellish in your accomplishments.
If you don’t understand, then picture a pile of leaves that were just raked up in the fall. Imagine a child jumping into those leaves and the happiness that they show through their smile. There not worried about the mess they’re going to make or if they’re going to get in trouble for making a mess.

What they are concerned about is being happy and having fun. Maybe it times for adults to stop trying to teach the children. Maybe its time to take some lessons from the children around us.
Rise yourself high above the mountains and be proud of who you are and what you have become.

9 Steps to Let Go of Perfectionism

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PeRfeCtioNist ArE NoThInG BuT ImPeRfecT ThEmSeLvES,
I'll do the things i love & the way i want it then that i can be more satisfied,pressuring just brings sufferings ,do things by heart not by mind that can bring perfection to whatever you wish to do.

Do you think that you have to get things done “just right"? Are you exerting unreasonably high standards on yourself? Do you spend too much time trying to get things done exactly correct in order to avoid criticism?

Do you feel like no matter how hard you try, it's never good enough? Are you always afraid that you will not be able to achieve the standards that you have set for yourself?

If you answered yes for any or all of these questions, you might be a perfectionist or have perfectionistic tendencies.

A perfectionist is usually defined as a person who is not satisfied with anything that is not perfect or does not meet extremely high standards.

Perfectionism usually provides encouragement to people to fight with the obstacle and strives for the best. Perfectionists know their goals in life and they set out and get things done in order to achieve their objectives.

Linda Kreger Silverman, Director of the Gifted Development Center argues, “The root of excellence is perfectionism. It is the driving force in the personality that propels the individual toward higher and higher goals.

There is a strong correlation between perfectionism and giftedness. I have yet to meet a gifted person who wasn’t perfectionistic in some way."

However, perfectionism can lead to great vulnerability. It is a sword that cuts both ways. If one takes perfectionism to the extreme, it can leave you feeling down over and over again if you are unable to reach your goals.

Setting very high standards without leaving any margin of error and mistakes one can reduce productivity and effectiveness. Usually perfectionists set unattainable standards for themselves and when they are not able to meet those standards they fall into anxiety and depression.

Dr. Monica Basco, an internationally recognized expert in cognitive-behavior therapy, explains that uncontrolled perfectionism can lead to depression, anxiety, and low self-esteem, fear of failure, and broken marriages and friendships.

When one comes to college, he/she brings a lot of expectations and sets standards for themselves. If you are trying to achieve those standards by being an intense perfectionist, you may want to change your track before you cause major damage to yourself.

Trying to identify the advantages and disadvantages of being perfect is the first step to coping with the problem. Do you think that you get very stressed if things don’t go your way? Or may be you are always afraid that things won’t go your way?

When you screw something up or find yourself doing less than perfect, instead of cursing, try seeing the big picture and ask yourself, is it as bad as I think it is? What is the perception of others towards my work?

In setting goals and expectations for yourself, please be realistic. You cannot get all six assignments done and done right in one night when they are all due the following week.

Moreover, learn how to take criticism. Most perfectionist fear criticism to the extreme extent but you has to except the fact that everyone one screws up once in a while and it is totally OK. If someone criticizes you on an error, acknowledge your mistake and tell yourself that you have right to make mistakes once in a while.

It's important for students to appreciate that that there's no way to attain perfection, no matter how hard you work. At the end of the day, you want to be able to say that you did the best you could, given the time you had and let it go. Of course, you also want to be open to constructive criticism so that you can improve.

The important thing is not to take criticism or a lower-than-desired grade as a reflection of your worth as a person.

You are much more than the grades you receive, and it's good to remind yourself of your positive qualities or past successes when you receive a disappointing grade.

The key is to compartmentalize the criticism and not let it affect your general sense of self worth.

By explaining the downside of being a perfectionist, I am not suggesting that being a perfectionist is not a healthy habit, however uncontrolled perfectionism can cast a net over our expression of happiness.

Life is spent one day at a time and although we should prepare for the future, by being a perfectionist our mind will be always be planning or thinking about a perfect future or lamenting about what went wrong in the past.

If you think you are a perfectionist, be a perfectionist but try not to be a “perfect” perfectionist.

Perfectionists fear that if they give up perfectionism, they won't be good anymore at anything; they'll fall apart. In fact, perfectionism harms performance more than it helps. The worst thing about it, says Randy Frost [a professor at Smith College], is the belief that self-worth is contingent on performance—that if you don't do well, you're worthless. It's possible to escape that thinking.

1. First, watch a movie or a sunset or engage in some activity not affected by your perfectionistic strivings. Pay attention to how much pleasure you get from it.

2. Then engage in some activity—say, tennis—that is subject to your perfectionism. How much pleasure do you get from it?

3. Ask yourself: So I miss a shot, what does it mean for my self-worth?

4. Apply that same insight to all other activities: Is this perfectionistic orientation worth it for this task?

5. Now you actually need to experiment with a different way of evaluating yourself and your performance. So deliberately make a mistake; miss a shot in tennis.

6. Ask yourself: Does your opponent think less of you? Do observers think less of you? If your opponent makes a mistake, do you think less of him?

7. Play tennis and concentrate only on the motion of your body. Did you enjoy that set more?

8. Understand the nature of mistakes. They're something we learn from—more than from our successes.

9. Look upon failure as information, not a fixed or frozen outcome. It's a signal to try something else—another chance to learn.