"VIRTUES THAT LEAD TO HAPPINESS"

---LOVE YOUR FAMILY
---SHOW GRATITUDE
---BE HUMBLE AND SHOW COMPASSION
---LOVE WHAT YOU DO
---BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
---SPEAK FAITH , SPEAK POSITIVELY
---LIVE WITH PASSION
---PURSUE KNOWLEDGE
---USE YOUR IMAGINATION
---SET REALISTIC GOALS
---TAKE ACTION
---COMMIT TO EXCELLENCE
---EMBRACE CHANGE
---FAIL FORWARD
---SEEK PEACE
---LIVE WITH INTEGRITY
---PERSEVERE

BUT SEEK YE FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD, AND HIS RIGHTEOUSNESS; AND ALL THESE THINGS SHALL BE ADDED UNTO YOU. MATTHEW6:33

WHAT A TRUE FRIEND IS

Thought I'd share some of my favorite quotes about what a true friend is....

"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words"

"A real friend is the one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out"

"What is a friend? It is a person with whom you dare to be yourself."

"I believe that friends are quiet angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly"

"In prosperity our friends know us; in adversity we know our friends" (this is good and I can relate to it..I've had people who are around when things are going well, but disappear when I am going through tough times and need a friend to lean on)

"A true friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be somewhere else"

"Real friends are those who, when you've made a fool of yourself, don't feel that you've done a permanent job"

"When it hurts to look back, and you're too scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there"

"My best friend is the one who brings out the best in me"

Secretly In Love With You

Secretly In Love

You took my hand and led the way never telling me all you wanted to say whisper softly love , in my ear all those sweet nothings I wanted to hear kiss my lips and touch my skin boiling passions deep within

Pull me close and hold me near sheltering me from my own pain and fear through the darkness in the night baby ,be my beacon ,and shine your light in the brightness in the sun show me

I'm your only one give me wings so I can fly I can soar when your nearby enter my heart and break down this wall it's time for me to watch it fall

I've been a prisoner can't you see now break my chains and set me free strip me of my armor tight you'll find I wont put up a fight release my soul held deep within I'm ready now, to love again

MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com

True Friend Is Rare To Find

What makes a true friend?

Ok, this blog took a lot of time and effort, thanks to all of you who helped with your input and thoughts:

Kayla, Kristin, Shannon, Gorilla, Sherri, Jay, Trey and Lover Lovingston.

What makes a good friend to me??

This was a hard question for me to answer and I want to pose this question to all of you at the end here....



In my eyes a real friend is tried and true. They are there when you need someone to talk to and they understand your feelings or at the very least act understanding even when they don't understand fully. They sympathize with you and they always take your feelings into consideration. They understand that things in your life need to be accomplished as well as they would take care of their own things. They don't get angry or mad if you have something important that needs to be done before all else. They will not talk about you in public and they will always have your back.

A good friend will offer you advice and stand by your side even if they do not agree with the decisions you may make. A good friend will offer encouragement and offer prayers or good thoughts/words to help you through a situation.

A good friend will call you when they know you are having a bad day to make sure you are ok, to do the best they can to offer a shoulder or an ear. A good friend will not only think of themselves, but always take care of themselves...you can't be a good friend to someone, that offers good advice, if you aren't all together yourself...

A good friend will laugh at you AND with you, they will tell you when you mess up or they may keep their thoughts to themselves, but either way, they'll love you regardless of your failures or decisions. They'll question your thoughts, beliefs or feelings, to make sure you think from all angles, not just to be an ass. They may say something you don't like to hear or don't want to hear, but they do it in YOUR best interests.

A true friend will never be offended by another friend’s advice or questions…maybe if there was an offense taken it was only because it was the truth and it made them mad to hear it said aloud, maybe it only reconfirmed their fears. True friends don’t say those things out of spite, but out of looking after the ones they care about and protecting the ones they love.

Real friends don’t publicly fault their friends. They are grown up and can act mature enough to handle things like an adult. A real friend doesn’t stab you in the back when you are only trying to be helpful. A real friend won’t ignore you over something trivial and insignificant.

A real friend will understand your need to take care of the things in your life above all else. If they are a real friend they won’t fault you for taking a few minutes to get something important taken care of. They will understand and still be there once you have taken care of necessary business.

A real friend will sense when there is something wrong in your attitude or personality, they will call you up to see if you are ok, they will send you a message saying that “I’ll be there for you, when you want to talk.”

A real friend will not do something to help you out, then turn around and use it against you. Especially when the action that supposedly helped you was not one that you had even asked them for.

They let you have space, but don’t let you go too far from their sight. They keep you in mind and always have your best interests at heart. They understand that your family will always come before them and are not selfish in their desire to take up all of your time and energy. They appreciate the efforts you make at friendship, even if you are not able to lend out hours of your time at the time they need you.

There are exceptions to this of course. If a friend is in a car wreck or tragically ill and on their deathbed, then yes, a real friend will put their life on hold to help the other one make it through and cope. They will drop it all and give everything they have towards making the friend's situation more comfortable or tolerable. However, if it is the same situation over and over again, for example an asshole significant other or a drug problem, then the friend in need should understand that the things in your life will take importance over their matters at hand. It doesn’t mean you don’t care, it just means you have to take care of something, you WILL get back to their problems as soon as you can, but experiencing the same problem over and over because you don’t want to change things only means one thing…insanity.

The Letter To The One

It's been so long since I've heard your voice. It was reckless of me letting you slip away from me. I want you to know what has happened all this time, but as of right now im so terrified to hear from you again mainly cause i dont know what your gonna say since i've been gone for so long.

I'm hesitating so much to pick up the phone and call you - i'm just too scared and nervous, but i know that i will hear from you soon cause i cant stand this heartache anymore, slowly im dying without you in my life.

I tried to live my life but everyday seemed like it was getting harder to breathe. Im still fighting that pain i still have left within me, its a battle im slowly losing because your not there when i need you most. There were so many sleepless nights that i thought about you, but there were times i wanted to forget about you. I tried to replace you with different guys but no matter who i'm with you'd always come back into my mind.

My heart was telling me that they're not the ones for me.It seems impossible for me to forget about you, i wish i had the strength to let go but its not easy to forget someone who i truely fallen in love with 3 years ago.

I've had to endure cold lonely nights were i would cry so hard into my sleep wanting so badly to scream, holding onto my chest all throught the night trying to stop that strange horrible emptiness that was consuming my heart. If only you knew how much i've been suffering without you, if only you can see how lifeless my soul is.Everytime i think about you, i always want to know what you're thinking, what you're feeling, i just cant help but to worry about you.

I just hope your not suffering as much as i am, I just cant let you feel what ive been feeling all this time, its something i dont want you ever feeling in your life. There are times that i wonder if your ever think about me, i want to believe you do but i feel that im too far away to be in your mind. I know you dont feel the same way i feel about you, but i hope that one day you can and see that my heart only beats for you.

Today i wanted to call you just like all those other attempted times but im always thinkin that maybe you've forgotten about me, that you moved on, maybe you already found that girl you've always wanted to love. Just thinking about these things tears me apart but these thoughts wont stop me from letting you know how i still feel about you.We both have fragile hearts and are cautious of who we give it to, but you shouldnt worry about me holding it for i would never hurt you, i have once but i wont do it twice.

I regret everyday what i did to you but im only human and im already paying for what i did. I just want you to understand that im fighting so hard for you, im risking the last bit of life i have in my heart for you. I will admit im terrified to lose you again as well as im afraid that if you let go i'll never fall in love again but im gonna do whatever it takes to show you true loyalty and affection.

I realized now that your the only one my heart ever wants, i realize that love can be painful but wonderful at the sametime. I know im so far away but i'll always be here whenever you need me. I'll always be here for you. I just cant see myself giving my heart to anyone else, i just hope you wont leave me again.

Its not easy without you here. Im tired of searching for love in this cold heartless world.Im tired of pretending that im ok when im not.If only people could understand what you truely mean to me.If only they can see that there is no other like you in this world.If only you knew how much you changed my life.

If only you knew how special you are to me.I know what im feeling is not mistaken for anything else.Let me show you what true love really feels.Take my hand and i'll lead you to true happiness.Please understand that i cant stop missing you. I cant keep myself away from you, I just dont have the strength anymore.

I promise i'll hold your heart forever.
Ohne dich kann ich nicht leben.Ich liebe dich.

" Hallucination "

Is it an impossible dream?

I want to be pursued, to be treasured by someone.

I want to be someone’s someone.

I want to have someone who is my someone.

I want someone to fight for me.

I want someone to want me.

I want someone to think the world of me.

I want someone to encourage me.

I want someone to challenge me.

I want someone with passion.

I want someone who goes for the things they want and helps me go for the things I want.

I want someone to hurt when they see me hurt, to smile when they see me happy.

I want to be all that for someone else.

I want someone to love me, and I want someone to love in return.

I am a beautiful person.

I am passionate.

I am a person of action.

I am a loving person.

I am worthy.

Why do I want this so bad? Is it even possible? Can it last a lifetime?

Is it an impossible dream?

Do Believe......

I Believe...

I Believe...


I Believe... That just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, doesn't mean they do love each other.


I Believe...That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I Believe....That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.


I Believe...That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.


I Believe.... That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.


I Believe...That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.


I Believe...That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.


I Believe.... That you can keep going long after you think you can't.


I Believe...That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I Believe...That true Love is worth fighting for.


I Believe....That either you control your attitude or it controls you.


I Believe...That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.


I Believe...That money is a lousy way of keeping score.


I Believe...That my best friend and I can do anything, or nothing, and have the best time...


I Believe...That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.


I Believe...That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.


I Believe...That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and what you've learned from them.....and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.


I Believe...That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.


I Believe...That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.


I Believe...That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.


I Believe...That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.


I Believe...Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.


I Believe...That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.


I Believe...That even when you think you have no more to give, if a friend cries out to you........you will find the strength to help.


I Believe...That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.


I Believe...That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon...


The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; They just make the most of everything.

My Dream

dreams.

i have big dreams, you know.

dreams about music and writing and talking and loving.
dreams about traveling the world,

taking in the beauty,taking in the pain.
i have dreams about a world where i have self-confidence;
dreams where i am secure and composed and okay.

i have dreams in which i do everything i should.
dreams in which i am successful, optimistic; hopeful.

i have dreams about standing on stages and making music,
watching people's eyes fill with tears and joy
as they hear their own stories in my songs;their songs.

i have big dreams, you know.

i have dreams in which i can cry whenever i feel like crying;
dreams about singing when i feel like singing,
laughing when i feel like laughing,
and loving whenever and wherever somebody needs it.

i have dreams about everything being okay.
dreams about homeless people finding shelter; finding home.
dreams about hungry people eating until they are full.

dreams about thirsty people finding water.

dreams about poor people finding jobs

and security and a better future.
dreams about sick people being healed.
dreams about broken people being restored to life.

these are dreams about other people
but they are also dreams about myself.
i am those people....

sometimes i feel like i have no place to call home
i feel hungry and thirsty and poor and sick.

i feel like there is no hope for me; no future for me,
no life outside my head. i have big dreams,
you know.i hope you have big dreams too.
and i hope that you are not afraid to talk about them.

"Dedicated To My Special Indian Friend"

40 Tips For Better Life...

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.

3. Sleep for 7 hours.

4. Live with the 3 E’s — Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.

5. Play more games.

6. Read more books than you did the previous year.

7. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer. They provide us with daily fuel for our busy lives.

8. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.

9. Dream more while you are awake.

10. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.

11. Drink plenty of water.

12. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

13. Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.

14. Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.

15. Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control.

16. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.

17. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.

18. Smile and laugh more.

19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.

20. Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

21. You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

22. Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.

23. Don’t compare your life to others’. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don’t compare your partner with others.

24. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

25. Forgive everyone for everything.

26. What other people think of you is none of your business.

27. GOD heals everything.

28. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

29. Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

30. Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.

31. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

32. The best is yet to come.

33. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

34. Do the right thing!

35. Call your family often.

36. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.

37. Each day give something good to others.

38. Don’t over do. Keep your limits.

39. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.

40. Don’t be more calculative in your life for all things.

Happiness

"Happy"

"Possessions, they don't mean that much It rains and they just turn to rust
and we all, we all turn to dust
In the end, in the end

All the stars above don't mean a thing
And I don't care about fortune and fame
All the gold can stay lost
In the bottom of the deep blue sea
It don't matter much to me
I just wanna be happy

Hey. Lets be honest
Love's the only dream
That we all want, that everybody needs
Life's a train, it don't turn back
It's how you love, not what you have
In the end, oh in the end

All the stars above don't mean a thing
And I don't care about fortune and fame
All the gold can stay lost
In the bottom of the deep blue sea
It don't matter much to me
I just wanna be happy

And the sun's gonna come up
And the sky's gonna look down
And we're all gonna keep
Spinnin' round and round

All the stars above don't mean a thing
And I don't care about fortune and fame
All the gold can stay lost In the bottom of the deep blue sea
It don't matter much to me
I just wanna be happy

To The Girl Who Stole My Heart

She means the world to me

Maybe tomorrow you'll take back my heart,Maybe you'll give me a brand new start.I'm living with dreams that won't come true,For you will never love me as I love you.Every thing happens for a reason,So i have to deal with this heart break without treason,You are still the apple of my eye,And many people are probably wondering why?Much respect goes out to you and i told you why,It just kills me to see our relationship telling us goodbye,Losing love for me is a feeling you cannot hide,However; you know i will always be by your side.Baby youre right, maybe your attraction for me will return,But for right now i have to just let it burn,You were always my dream come true,And i understand you did this because you were feeling blue.

It's whatever you like honey and its not your fault,Just keep my heart and lock it up in your vault,I still know you are the one for me,Will we be lovers again?...we will just have to wait and see...Hopefully the future holds something more than being friends,However you know ill be there until the end.

You are a dream come true

A dream come true

Watching you sleep,


Dreaming away.
Sleeping in my arms,
You'll be mine, again, someday.

Feeling you breathe,
So precious when you sleep.
I love every smile,
giggle, and weep.

I constantly wonder
What you dream about.
You're truely someone
I cannot live without.

When you're out of my arms,
It feels like a hole.
A missing piece in my life,
My heart, and my soul.

You're getting so big!
So damn cute and smart.
You're filled with joy,
And a beautiful heart.

You roll like a champ,
And waving goodbye.
Everytime I leave you,
I can't help but cry.

You're so close to crawling.
I love hearing you're voice.
Please understand, Honey.
None of this was by choice.

I made some mistakes,
I admit- I was wrong.
But we'll be a family again,
And it wont take too long.

We WILL be together.
I give you my word.
The only thing that could stop me,
Is Jesus Christ, our Lord.

But, he wont take me from you.
Or, you away from me.
He had a plan, giving you life.
And someday you will see.

It may seem really messed up,
The way things have worked out.
But it all happened for a reason,
I trust God, without doubt.

All you need is Me.
And, all I need is You.
Believe in Mommy, Baby Girl.

Our dreams WILL come true...

About That One True Love

True Love

YOU, with eyes that melt into the very core of my soul
YOU, with a voice that sounds like an angel speaking to the very center of my being.
YOU, with a touch that leaves me breathless, speechless, and numbs all pain.

Your smile makes me weak and my heart skips a beat,
The sound of your voice soothes my soul and calms my spirit,
Your touch tames my wild nature and soothes my impatient soul,
The look in your eyes stops all time and space and holds me tight.

You turn my heart inside out exposing all that I am,
You kiss away all my invisible scars
You clear my slate and allow me to begin over
You transform my life with the depth of your passion
You capture me in the beautiful complexity of your mind


Eyes with an intensity that melt right into the very core of my soul. A voice that speaks straight into my heart. A touch that numbs all pains emotional and physical and takes me to a place that is all our own. I am profoundly blessed to have finally found you through all the lives we've shared before this one, God led us to each other once again. How could we be worthy of such a gift from above.

Your love is more precious to me than the air I breath and I am forever yours with all that I am from now until the end of all time.

My Boo...

FOR YOU...

So cold and dark, so empty and alone,Never knowing what real love was.So fragile and closed, so hateful and cruel, never to open my heart to anyone, and then there was you.So scared, so new, not knowing what was to come, I gave you what little I had left. Hoping that you would want me the way that I am. Timid and frightened, wanting to love again, and then there was you.A little relief from the beating that my heart took, trying to remember what it was like. You showed me that it was real and true, you touch so gentle, you saw right through.All the pain and distrust disappeared that day, the love that consumed me felt so perfect and so right. Still hesitant to let anyone see who I really was, and then there was you.Believing in me, trusting me, loving me unconditionally, letting go of all the fear, anger, and regret. Knowing that it is ok just to be who I am.Crying, laughing, talking, sharing emotions that I tried to hide for so long, All because there was you.

How do I tell you how I feel about you

When.....

everytime i think of you my body shakes

everytime i see you my knees grow weak and

everytime i'm with you i dont want the time to end.

When.....

everytime i look into your eyes, i wish i was there

everytime i see you smile my heart melts and

every night before i go to sleep i pray we dont end.

I've tried somehow to say:

you're the sun that lights up my sky

the wind that keeps me cool on a hot summer day

and sweet incense that keeps me on a natural high

I want so much to tell you:

that without you with me each day my day isn't complete

that since day one I've always wanted to be with you

that no matter what's going on in my life

you're the reason there's a smile on my face

and that loving you seems to be all I need to know.

But everytime I want to

the words just wont come out

to you it may sound mushy or too cute

you may not believe it so it's better I keep my mouth closed

Then to try to tell you exactly whats on my mind

yet I wish to tell you that I'm beginning to

love you more with each passing of the day

and that I want to be with you

come whatever may.

One Word

One Look

One Smile

And my heart lightens.

How I wish it wasn't so!

I love you still.

One year ago

You captured my heart.

I have paid the price.

An astronomical sum.

And if to do it all again,

I would...because

One Word

One Look

One Smile.

Every I love you, you whisper,

is like rain for the trees,

moonlight for the ocean,

nectar for the bee

Every kiss bestowed upon me

is like fragrance on flowers,

heat upon the desert,

mist from morning showers

Every glance in my direction

is like flame to the fire,

a twinkling of stars,

a spark of love's desire

Every moment in your arms

is like waves to the ocean,

a rushing, primal urge,

a sweet mix of emotion

Every passing year marriage

is like joy without measure,

a life without limits,

I shall love you forever.

I LOVE U BOO BOO,YOU MIGHT NOT KNOW HOW MUCH OR LOVE ME THE SAME BUT MY LOVE IS UNTAINTABLE!!!

Man In A Crowd

different.

cuz im like no other.
i have a different scent.
i have a different taste.
i have a different face.
i have different ways.

my looks are portrayed by this ghetto i live in.
but my heart and mind are..
what they are because of this ghetto i live in.
must i be treated different
because of this ghetto i live in.?

nah nah
shoot..
i like to see things different.
i dont spend my nights on the streets runnin from the police.
i dont spend any time of any day drinking,
i dont spend anytime blowing trees,
cuz i keep my life from sinking.

my mentality is what it is because of the crazy things i've seen.
"no man alive has witnessed the struggles i survive" (tupac shakur)
and not even you will ever know what i mean.

drugs and alcohol..?
man i've seen it all.
i grew up around a bunch of screw ups.
i started talkin to the girl
and i immediately grew up.
discovered she's the BEST in the world..
and my heart immediately blew up.

my life has changed.
my heart has changed.
my drive.
my outlook on life.
my mentality in general
is different.
this girl changed my life
never in my life
did i once think
i'd ever think..
"i want this girl to be my wife"

now throughout the most complicated struggles
i make sure i survive.
i will run.
i will stride.
i will jump.
i will climb.
whatever it takes..
to keep her in my life.

i could and would do anything to keep it from being "alright".
and more than fine.
cuz this girl is more than fine.
she's gorgeous.
and i thank the lord..that she's mine.

my image is portrayed by my lifestyle.
never thought my style
could make things difficult for this long of awhile
so i continue to change
and i continue to become the man i could be
and the man i promised i would be.

an athlete
an honor student
a poet
a doctor to be..
you'd think that'll do it.
but impressed they yet wont be.
so i continue to work on being the man i know i should be.

i've changed my ways.
im different.
i've changed the ways..
of others.
they're different.

the girl has complete affiliation,
with my determination.
she's the reason for this creation.
she kept me from becoming an abomination.

the reason why i wanna get out the projects
and
move to the hills or out on the shores.
there's nothing i want more
to change my life style
and have her in my life forever
not just for-a-while.

i continue to have fun and joke around
but 99% of my mind
is tellin me everything is gonne be fine
and as long as God is puttin that in my mind
imma continue to wisely use my mind.
cuz she's one of those girls you'd find once in a lifetime.

im no Albert Einstein.
im no Benjamin Franklin.
i cant do anything special..
other than become a different man.
im no genius
but trust me.
the man i've became.
oh..you've never seen this.

thanks to the love of my life..
im not the man i was 2 years ago.
im different.
my life has been changed because of the
way THEY think i am.
but they dont even know me.
but, i continue to change the image i portray.
cuz,
im different

Eternity

Let Love Last

Listen to her secrets.
Take her out to dinner.
Call her first.
Label her as yours.
Understand her feelings.
Tell her shes gorgeous.
Write her a song.
Talk to her like a human being.
Ask her to dance with you.
Never imagine life without her.
Kiss her in the rain.
Hold her hand at any time.
Pass her love letters.
Never forget her birthday.
Tell her shes always right.
Be her escape.
Tell her you believe this is a fairytale.
Give her gummy worms.
Remember her favorite color.
Hold her books in school.
Give her hugs and kisses.
Show her off to your friends.
Kiss her hand just because.
Treat her like a star.
Dream about her.
Tell her shes super nifty.
Say she has the key to your heart.
Watch her walk home - so she's safe.
Play her favorite game.
Have a song that remind you of her.
Kiss her on the forehead...
Dance together like retards.
Stay together forever.
Let love last.