Learning to be stronger...

Over the years I have come to many realizations about aspects of me and my life. With all the power in my body and mind I set out with the best of intentions to be stronger, put myself first and let go of old grudges. However what is easier said than actually done. In the past month I have changed a few things...both good and bad.

There are somethings that I need to let go and that is what this blog is about. To all my friends: Thank you for being there for me when I have needed you, even though I didn't ask or request it at that time. I know many of you have your own lives to lead...but yet you take the time out to inquire about how mine is going.

I know that I don't always reciprocate the same way, but none the less your friendship doesn't escape my thoughts or appreciation.

To my Body and Mind:I write to say that I can't yo-yo anymore. I am tired of seeing plateaus!! I would like to see the gradual decline of a slope...that I am running down fast. Staying in the 250's for 6 months tested my willpower and my ability to stay sane. Finally climbing out of the 250's into the 240's was a Godsend, but I feel that familiar roller coaster of up and down happening again...I WANT IT TO STOP.

I pray that I can give myself the willpower to move on and take back my life! I NEED to take back my willpower and drive. I want to see 240 on the scale and be able to put on a size 20 and then an 18. I don't want to be FAT anymore..I just want to be comfortable in my own skin.

Learning to let go of small things at first is the greatest challenge any human being can make. This is for me and me alone...I ask my friends to keep on encouraging me and to help me become stronger through either praying for me, giving words of encouragement, or any way they see fit.

Thank you very much and I pray that each of you have a nice day.

"Hope,Courage & Faith "

DON'T GIVE UP!

We sometimes brake down and fall

Those who stand above us

Can make us seem so small

We tremble under the weight

Of the problems that hold us down

And when we start to collapse

There seems to be no one around

We try to fight in this world

That always seems to fight back

Sometimes we’re not strong enough though

There are too many things we lack

We’ll hide away in corners

Put upon ourselves pain

But there’s no escape from this life

We all must suffer the same

But although we may struggle

And yes we all do fall

I’ll stand by your side

I’ll stay with you through it all

And if you start to tremble

Or even brake down

I’m your shoulder to cry on

I’ll always be around

We all have our faults

Are up and are downs

We cant always smile all the time

Everyone has to frown

No, no ones perfect

And no one is the same

We’re in this world together

We all play the same game

If we stick together

No matter what’s to come

With a little faith and hope

Anything can be done

We all get those bad times

Each and every one of us

But I promise it will get better

Just don’t you give up

But when you feel like you want too

Please just remember this

You can die at any time

But it takes a strong person to live

This poem is dedicated to you all.

For we all suffer sometimes in our lives.
Some of us suffer loss, others from the feeling of being different,
there are so many things that bring us down.....
Some sit in their rooms and just cry and pray for a better life,
some of us can’t handle things and reach for the knife.....
Whatever makes you depressed, no matter how down you feel,
how close to giving up you get, don’t!!!

Hold on, be strong, there is always someone out there who cares for you.

Life has it’s up and downs, and one day, it’ll look up for you too

If you need someone turn too, I'm here, for anyone who needs me.

"Strength vs Courage"

Inner thoughts on 'Strength vs Courage'. I thought it's deep so I'd like to share it with ya'll and it goes a little something like this....

It takes strength to be firm. It takes courage to be gentle.

It takes strength to stand guard. It takes courage to let down your guard.

It takes strength to conquer. It takes courage to surrender.

It takes strength to be certain. It takes courage to have doubt.

It takes strength to fit in. It takes courage to stand out.

It takes strength to feel a friend's pain. It takes courage to feel your own pain.

It takes strength to hide your own pain. It takes courage to show them.

It takes strength to endure abuse. It takes courage to stop it.

It takes strength to stand alone. It takes courage to lean on another.

It takes strength to love. It takes courage to be loved.

It takes strength to survive. It takes courage to live.

"Dream & Discover What Your Future Holds"

K E Y S__T O__L I F E_________

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MY DEFINITE KEYS TO LIFE IS TO KEEP YOUR HEAD UP AND DO NOT LET ANYBODY TELL YOU THAT YOU CAN'T DO SOMETHING WHEN YOU KNOW YOU CAN...YOU CAN BE ANYTHING IN LIFE AS LONG AS YOU KEEP PUSHING FORWARD AND STOP TAKING THE BABY STEPS IN LIFE..LIFE IS A SERIOUS MATTER SO THERE FOR YOU SHOULD ALWAYS TAKE LIFE SERIOUSLY SO THAT MEANS MAKE THE BEST OF TODAY BECAUSE TOMORROW ISN'T A PROMISE....LIFE IS LIKE WATER..IT TRAVELS ON AND ON UNTIL YOU LET IT GO OR THROW IT AWAY BY NOT MAKING THE RIGHT DECISIONS...I HAVE DEDICATED MY LIFE SO MY LIFE IS IN GODS HANDS SO I LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST EVERYDAY AND TRY TO DO MY BEST...SO JUST HOLD YOUR HEAD HIGH A KEEP GOING.

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"Spiritual Upliftment"

EMERGENCY PHONES

Emergency Telephone Numbers These are more effective than 911

When- You are sad, phone John 14

You have sinned, phone Psalm 51

You are facing danger, phone Psalm 91

People have failed you, phone Psalm 27

It feels as though God is far from you, phone Psalm 139

Your faith needs stimulation, phone Hebrews 11

You are alone and scared, phone Psalm 23

You are worried, phone Matthew 8:19-34

You are hurt and critical, phone 1 Corinthians 13

You wonder about Christianity, phone 2 Corinthians 5:15-18

You feel like an outcast, phone Romans 8:31-39

You are seeking peace, phone Matthew 11:25-30

It feels as if the world is bigger than God, phone Psalm 90

You need Christ like insurance, phone Romans 8:1-30

You are leaving home for a trip , phone Psalm 121

You are praying for yourself, phone Psalm 87

You require courage for a task, phone Joshua 1

Inflation's and investments are hogging your thoughts, phone Mark 10:17-31

You are depressive, phone Psalm 27

Your bank account is empty, phone Psalm 37

You lose faith in mankind, phone 1 Corinthians 13

It looks like people are unfriendly, phone John 15

You are losing hope, phone Psalm 126

You feel the world is small compared to you, phone Psalm 19

You want to carry fruit, phone John 15

Paul's secret for happiness, phone Colossians 3:12-17

With big opportunity/ discovery, phone Isaiah 55

To get along with other people, phone Romans 12

ALTERNATE NUMBERS For dealing with fear, call Psalm 47

For security, call Psalm 121:3

For assurance, call Mark 8:35

For reassurance, call Psalm 145:18

ALL THESE NUMBERS MAY BE PHONED DIRECTLY. NO OPERATOR ASSISTANCE IS NECESSARY. ALL LINES TO HEAVEN ARE AVAILABLE 24 HOURS A DAY. FEED YOUR FAITH, AND DOUBT WILL STARVE TO DEATH.

"Music For The Soul"

" Music In The World Of Hate"

Music has a huge impact to our lives just some people ignore it,if you try to internalized the songs that have a positive lyrics it can do a lot in your daily life:

I can say that music is the best stress reducer...

Listening to good Music is the best technique in handling anger instead of attending an anger management program & waste your money just listen to some relaxing music that can ease your anger & shift your mood into much more calm feeling.

You can try any kind that soothes your ears.But if you want to relax & have a nice rest try listening to instrumental.

Some don't give so much importance to music ,some just think it is just use by those who like to sing & dance & for entertaiment purposes only.

But there are more benefits than you realized in listening to a nice soothing sound,music is the way to a man's heart & soul...

Music can make a big influence in daily our lives,it can change your outlook in a more positive manner.I myself had proven that Music have a very powerful impact in my outlook in life.I can get strength in just listening to music,i get to relax if i'm in tension,i can able to change my mood quickly from being sad to being happy.Music had given me a major shift in my life,i'm just hoping i could share my knowledge that can help others to live a more happier & stress-free life.I won't be ashamed to admit that i had a life that is so much complicated & most people around dragged me down most of the time i feel alone that no one to turn to,no one to speak ,no one would really understand but still i try to be strong & be positive but still i'm still a normal person who get hurts & need an outlet to released my pain.That is why i have this eagerness to make others feel that they are needed & wanted.I want to share them my experiences so could will realized that they are not the only person who suffer.I want to be strong for the people that are weaker than me in that way helping them changed their outlook in life makes me achieve something that my family fails to share with me,the appreciation that i'm worth something.

Music become my friend & confiandant...some may think it crazy but if you will just let the soul of the music enter your heart you can find a feeling of acceptance.I know for some they would not understand what i'm trying to point out.But not try to understand it from an intellectual level but try to understand in your emotional level let your heart interpret it not your mind.

"Strenghts of a mother..."

Mother

They carry children, they carry hardships,
they carry burdens but they hold
happiness, love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when the are happy and laugh
when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up for justice.

They don't take NO for an answer when
they believe there is a better solution.

They go without new shoes so their children
can have them. They go to the
doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and
cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a
birth or a new marriage.

Their heart breaks when a friend dies.

They have sorrow at the loss of a family
member, yet they are strong when
they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and kiss can heal
a broken heart. Mothers come in all
sizes, in all colors and shapes.

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or Email you
to show how much they care about
YOU. The heart of a mother is what makes
the world spin! Mothers do more than
just give birth. They bring joy and hope.

They give compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family &
friends. Mothers have a lot to say
and a lot to give.

"Pain is where we can pull our Strength"

Sometimes we must be hurt in order to grow,

we must fail in order to know.
We must lose in order to gain,
Some lessons are learned best only through pain.

Sometimes our vision clears,
Only after our eyes are washed with tears.
Sometimes we have to be broken so we can be tender,
Sick, so we can rest and think better on things
more important than work or fun,
Trip near death so we can assess how we've run.

Sometimes we have to suffer lack so we can know God's provisions,
feel another's pain so we can have a sense of mission.
So take heart my friend if you don't understand today,
Instead of grumbling, ask God what he means to say.

In order to learn, you must endure,
And learn to see the bigger picture.
In order to grow, you must stand,
Look beyond the hurt, to God's loving hands

That takes what is good and gives what is best,
And on this blessed thought rest.
As your anxious heart with questions
wait, God's hand only gives what his loving
heart dictates.