" Illusion Of The Mind "

Up to me...

There is dissention among my own ranks

I live in a world of blasphemy and confusion

The B R I A N that you see and read

Is often times just an illusion

I decorate my life with bells and whistles

so the masses are immune to the truth

keeping a tight hold on what I am

refusing to allow myself to get used

The choices that I make are ones of need

Not realizing the impact of today

Trying to get up for another tomorrow

Can't imagine I would end up this way

I am not in favor of the person I see

Broken mirrors and shattered dreams

Minute by minute, Hour by hour, Day after day

One long irrelevant exhistance, or so it seems

I don't accept the worries or fears

Although they are noted by those close to me

There is this hole that has been dug

Climbing to the surface, well, that is up to me

The Dream , The Kiss

This Girl

There's a girl livin' in this town
Shes got her head up in the sky
but her feet are on the ground
There's a girl livin' on my street
She knows outside her little world
Somehow ends are gunna meet
And when the roads get kinda rough
She keeps one thing in mind
The longest journey always starts with
Once upon a time
And this girl has seen a lot of pain
But this girls gunna smile again
But she knows a flower grows everytime
It rains

And this girls got a lot of dreams
She knows that tommorrow isn't what it seems
She might not slove a mystery tonight
But this girls gunna be alright

Theres a girl walking in these shoes
And she knows that everythings she got
is all shes got to loose
Theres a dream right behind these eyes
And she finds a reason to be strong with every tear she dries
Being hard to fight the way things are
so she leaves the world behind
with the sound of doubt turned up so loud she turns the music up inside

::And this girls seen a lot of pain
but this girls gunna smile again she knows that a flower grows everytime it rain
and this girls got a lot of dreams
she knows that tommorrow ain't what it seems
she might not slove a mystery tonight
but this girls gunna be alright

She knows it so much she's never seen
the sound will come louder to find out what it means

And this girls seen a lot of pain
but this girls gunna smile again she knows that a flower grows everytime it rain
and this girls got a lot of dreams
she knows that tommorrow ain't what it seems
she might not slove a mystery tonight
but this girls gunna be alright
Alright, shes gunna be alright

"Love Connections"

DISTANT CONNECTION

Being far away from you is not easy,

But i know your always with me

Wherever you maybe.

The way i feel for you is so strong

That i can feel you no matter where you

maybe.

There are times when i'm tired of my life

But i know that there is someone waiting

For me on the other side.

We have been through so many hardships together

And there you thought me that when you truly love

someone you just don't give up

But stick together no matter what.

You told me that we are not two but one

And being apart from you made me realize

What you actually meant.

This is the distant connection i have with you...

I hear you nomatter where you are.

"Poetic Majesty"

MAJESTIC

See how she makes me smile
Without doubt or comparison she resides In men’s hearts
A world apart like common nonsense to your troubled art
She is beauty

For sweetness is a fragrance that resides in her radiance
Like knowledge’s wisdom she is the truth within them
A kingdom refined in loves ointment
The black empress indeed my one true mistress

Poetic verses align to applaud such a creation
A masterpiece, indeed more than breath for she is spirit and heart
Substantial elevation like a thought in flight
Her wicked pen squirts unquestionable truth

Wise princess numbing men’s weak senses
Her only weakness is her tongues pureness

From past prophecies to modern realities
Fragmented from these scrolls so bear witness

Testimonies from minds that align with the ancients
Read the lies and made the strong confess
Who am I to object or come close to this
I observe from a distance

Read her choreographed movements in random moments

A true poet
What is her weakness?

I search her hearts contents only to find defeat in my nuisance

The worthless made worth it

Indeed she needs to hear these praises
For her smile sanitises the madness and lights the darkness
Her verbs aromas environments like incense

The enlightened sense the truths in this
So I live by your teachings to express loves true meaning
‘The lost king to be united through the queens offspring

Shocking the world as the truth comes in the open ’ (lol)
From united lips tongues now confessing

You really are
A majestic poet in everything

"AGELESS"

Forever young

The heart stays forever young
It bounds over the fields of it's youth
Where time held no boundaries
And the cares of life were nonexistent

*~~*

Where each day was an adventure
Out into a bright world of promise.
We could spin our hopes and dreams
And believe they would come true.

*~~*

The harsh realities of adulthood come
And pain and disappointments befall us.
With time it fades into the recesses of our forgetfulness
Where we don't have to return.

*~~*

We hold our precious memories close inside our heart
And let our dreams gallop onward
Through meadows and brooks;
Soaring high above our pain.

*~~*

A fountain of youth springs forth
Washing over the scars in our heart and soul....
A balm never letting the heart grow old.

****~~****

"Expressive Eyes"

"Look Into My Eyes"

They infected in her soul

A malicious disease to hate

What she loves most

Her pride of being unique,

Was judged accordingly,

To their grammars

Of being characteristically misunderstood punctuation

They forgot that she is an extraordinary woman

Who needs no Dick to rationalize her emotions?

Nor Tom to try and fulfill her aspirations

And not even Harry to make her

A phenomenal woman

They are just in her eyes the passing sun rays

Of the rain droplets caressing her soul

With the strength to be justly judged as a phenomenal woman

And be trialed by those who believe innocence doesn't exist

In their dreams of wanting her naked and bare

But it is her love remembered

By us who remembers our ex's,

Axed by our inability to have patience

Strongly bonded in time to remind us

We have lost our own redeemed minds.

By failing to listen why we respond to a prayer

That blesses those we hate the most

With greatest passion of forgetting

The ones we simply love.

" Love Essentials "

Love is not enough

Love is not the only reason why relationship stands for years or till forever.. we might think that love holds the relationship.. but this is a wrong way of thinking, love diminish thru time, maybe the person you love now would be the person you will hate when you reach a certain age.. in each level of maturity there will be a new ideas, new thinkings, new opportunities and growths. love can be weaken, love fades. have you heard of someone saying I LOVE YOU FOREVER.. there's no forever in this word.. the only thing that is constant in this world is CHANGE! people change same with feelings, and love is a feeling..

I just realized that love is not enough. the secret of having a strong lasting relationship is to trust the one u love and able to accept his/her weaknesses or mistakes.. it's not how many time you have forgiven but how you shown understanding..

Love is nothing w/o trust. so don't ruin one's trust coz this would be the door for a happy relationship.

Unselfish Love

a small love story

Two Butterflies were in love...One day,they decided to play Hide n Seek.....During the play....Boy Butterfly - "A small game within us"Girl Butterfly - "OK"Boy Butterfly - "The one who sits in this flower tomorrow early in the morning......that one loves the other one more...Girl Butterfly - "OK"Next morning, the boy butterfly waits for the flower to open so that he can sit before the girl butterfly doesFinally,the flower opened.....What did he see?The girl butterfly had died inside the flower. She stayed there all night so that early in the morning as soon as she sees him she can fly to him and tell him how much she loved him.This is true Love.Life is Love.

Living might mean taking chances,but they are worth taking
Loving might be a mistake,but its worth making.

W I S E W O R D S

whenever you decide to close the door, remember not to always shut the door, you never can tell, you may still need to walk through that door!

* They didn't agree on much.In fact, they rarely agreed on anything.They fought all the time & challenged each other everyday.But in spite of their differences;They had one important thing in common.They were crazy about eachother. * I want to be the girl he is scared to lose.The one where he can't walk away from,knowing she is mad at him.The one who can't fall asleep withouther voice being the last one he hears;The one he can't live without. * Love isn't finding someone you can live with...it's finding someone you can't live without <3>

* If loving you is wrong, then I don't want to be right. * I love the way you smile at meand make me feel that nothing can go wrong. * Love is the most cruelest form of affection,and the most sweetest form of torture. * To the world you may be one person.But to one person, you may be the world. * I have never been to jail.But that doesn't mean I've never stolen a heart. * Love is when you don't want to go to sleep;because reality is better than a dream. * I'm not asking for diamonds. I'm not asking for the world.I'm just asking that you hold me & call me your babygurl. * Don't say you love me, unless you really mean it.Because I might do something crazy ... like believe it. * You filled my heart with love and my world with happiness. * You were everything I was looking for....when I wasn't even looking. * If you love me, let me know. If you don't, then let me go. * If you asked how many times you ran through my mind..I'd say once, cause babe, you never left it. * The man that deserves you the mostis the man that thinks he doesn't. * Love is like a mountain;smooth corners, rough edges, and hard falls. * Never say forever cause forever isn't real.Forever's what you think and forever's what you feel.So if you say forever please promise that you'll tryBut never say forever cause forever makes me cry * If you loved me like you told meBe careful with my heartYou can take it, just don't break itCause my world would fall apart* I want to be the seashell you find washed up along the tide. Beautiful, flawless, and special in your eyes. * Everytime I see you ... I fall in love all over again. * I promise I will never forget the day we kissed..or the day we met. The sky may fall..and the stars may too.but in the end I will still love you. * It takes millions of people to complete the worldbut it only takes you to complete mine.

* A heart is not judged by how much you love, but by how much you are loved by others.


* Nothing can explain this dream I had thatsuddenly came true...everything I've ever wantedI've found in you * I wont mess with your head or play with your heartBecause I'm a real girl & I finish what I start. * True love never dies. It only gets stronger with time. * Being with you made me feel like...for once in my lifeI wouldn't have to work so hard on being happythat it could just happen. * Kiss me and i'll see stars......love me and i'll give them to you! * You're just jealous because we are young and in love. <3>* YOU are the first person I think of when I wake up......the last person I think of before I go to bed......and the only person I think of as I dream...* The world is gonna throw us a million reasonsof why this isn't gonna work out between us,but I am armed with one reason of why it will..I LoVe YoU

* Once in a while, right in the middle of life...Love gives us a fairytale.

* Love is a misunderstanding between two fools. * I'm not perfect, neither is he, but together we just may be!

The Dream

That Special Day

I Lay Awake At Night Dreaming Of That Special Day
Hoping And Praying One Day It Will Come My Way
It's Not ABout The Dress , How I'll Sparkle And Glow
Or About The Millions Roses Just There For Show
I Don't Care About The Ring , Who To Invite And Who To Sits

Where all That Matter To Me Is.... Seeing The Man
I Love There Watching Him Look Me In The Eye As We Exchange Ours Rings

Reading Vows To Each Other As The Choir Sings
Marrying That Special Person Who I'll Always Loved , Is All I've Want To Do
All I Can Do Is Wait Now And Pray My Dream Comes True

Destination

Time Travel !

What we experience today , is the result of our past choices .


it's like looking at the sky , to a beautiful star . what you are seeing is just the light of that star , the star itselff may not exist any more . but you can't resist .. you start dreaming , or even writing an amazing poem about .. .. an illusion !the same happens when we remember something , that is too good or too bad to forget , and re-live it over and over again .at one point, we will re-act , as if it's real and happening , but when our eyes are opened ... we will face reality and find out that we just lost both what we had and what we have or could have .it's not easy at all to face both sides of reality , the one we hate and the one we love , the one we try to forget and the one we want to remember .. the one we live and the one we hope .. but you must .. you can't accept one side and ignore the other . it will haunt you forever . many people would tell you that we can't change the past. I think they are wrong .

we can change the past by changing how we look at it .. and how we understand it .try it , and when you do .. you will find that the past really changed .the events are the same .. but everything else is not the same anymore .change how you look at the past , and how you understand it , and your present will change instantly . and that , will create a new future , a better , and very real future .

"Love Connections"

What if you meet someone who is perfect for you? He "gets" you, you "get" him -- when you're together, time seems to stand still.

What if, for some reason, you can't make it work? Would you spend the rest of your life looking for that connection again? Or would you simply settle?



What if you settle and, two years later, meet the man of your dreams? Only then it is too late. Would you spend the rest of your life regretting your decision? Or would you simply become numb to it all?

What if you spend your entire life afraid of settling? You pass on every man you are with, saying it just isn't quite "right." You wait for that magical connection, sure it will come someday. After all, there's plenty of time.

You're only 20.

30.

40.

What if you love freely, with all your heart, giving each new person every possible chance to get it right? What if you waste untold amounts of time with men who don't laugh at your jokes, men who let you down? No matter what, you never give up, but you never settle either. You spend your life searching for the one that will last. The one who will come along at just the right time and feel for you as you feel for him. What if you never find him?

What if you end up all alone?

What if...?

My Undying Love

Strange Feelings

It's still a mystery what connects us

What brings me this feeling that i can't even describe

A craving , a weakness that when you are near

all i want to do is run to you,hold you tight & never let go

Strange emotion that keeps haunting me whenever i go

Even i hide i think i can't escape this feelings that is wild

I wanna kiss u everytime i got a chance , i don't want to escape

I want to be locked with you in a place where only you & me

A place where i can be yours & you can be mine

I love you so much more than the words that i can utter

Hold me , Hold me don't ever let go...

Because i can run , i can escape from you but i cannot lie

You are the man of my dreams, You are the soul of my heart

I never wanted any other man but you...

If the love is real,let it be

because loving you is my fuel for living...

Missing You

HOW CAN I

How can i leave you
When my heart say you stay..
How can i forget you
When my heart longs for you..
How can i say i can live w/ out you..
You are my life....
How hard it is to forget someone..
That makes half of your life
missing...
You are my life...
You are my LOVE
You are my everything...

"Place Where I Can Be At Home"

U n t i t l e d

I found you
at dawn in May,not where
hedges grow in green.

Blind forefinger danced
A bit, behind the shadows
Of words in between….

You ride with ancestors might
Reluctantly I glanced
At those eyes that speak so right.

Shall I dress the naked truth?
Will your eyes melt like snow
On my palm when they
Find the thief that stole my youth?

I found you
At noon in June not when
The rain touches the ground

cloaked heart held the cloud,
Covered your raw footprints,
A crouch, to guard your footfalls
Though faint they may sound.

"Love Is Never Planned"

When Love Is an Affliction

When love is an affliction,
There's not much one can do.
Despite the way you've treated me,
I'm still in love with you.

I am the wave and you the rock
Against which I must break:
Again, again the crushing jolt,
The pain I can't forsake;

Again, again the long retreat
To safety, far from shore,

And then again, I don't know why,
The long trip back for more.
Perhaps it is nostalgia for
A long uncertain glow,
Or just some hope so beautiful
I cannot let it go.

Perhaps it is the need to try
For those who must depend
On who we are and what we do,
For whom this should not end.

What evil makes you hurt me so,
What defect of the heart?
What sense there is no greater whole
Of which you are a part?
What lonely choice that only you

Be served by what you choose?
What hard, hard fear of losing what
It is a gift to lose?

I dream sometimes my waiting love
Has made you turn again.

But you care only for yourself,
And I must love in vain.

"As Days Go By"

i miss u

To see you when I wake up

is a gift I didn't think could be real to know that you feel the same as I do is a three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me that I can't explain so would I be out of line, if I said I miss you
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine you have only been gone ten days but already I am wasting away
I know I'll see you again whether far or soon but I need you to know that I care and I miss you (I miss you)

"My Identity,My Life"

Being A Woman In My Own World





















I am a girl.
I am a woman.
I am a daughter.
I am a wife.
I am a christian.

I am a girl who sometimes just wants her momma.
I am a girl who still likes to go to the park and swing.
I am a girl who is a connoisseur of color books.
I am a girl who loves pretty girly things.
I am a girl who still believes that santa,
the Easter bunny and the tooth fairy could be real..

I am a woman who sometimes just wants to be alone.
I am a woman who has never felt like she was meant to stay here forever.
I am a woman who is full of adventure.
I am a woman who doesn't care what you think of me.
I am a woman who knows I can do anything I set my mind to.
I am a woman who took too long to realize that the main person I need to love is myself.

I am a daughter of a woman who is amazing.
I am a daughter of a man who missed out.
I am a daughter to so many people who aren't my parents.
I am a daughter to a man who came later.
I am a daughter to two people who worked overwhelmingly hard to give me everything.
I am a daughter who didn't always appreciate it.
I am a daughter who now knows my momma was always right and I love her for it.

I am a wife of a man who is just like me.
I am a wife who worries about my husband all the time.
I am a wife who knows that moving will give him more happiness.
I am a wife who is so proud to be his plus one.
I am a wife who watches him sleep each night.
I am a wife who knows that each day is a blessing.
I am a wife who has never regretted being married.
I am a wife who knows that my marriage will last.

I am a christian who has been let down by the church.
I am a christian who sometimes has forgotten to put god first.
I am a christian who has realized how wrong I was and put him back where he needed to be..
I am a christian who asks god to protect people I see suffering on TV.
I am a christian who knows that even if I have nothing, I still have god.
I am a christian who doesn't go to church, but still worships in my own way.
I am a christian who believes that anything can happen as long as I believe.