Monday, September 28, 2009

" Hallucination "

Is it an impossible dream?

I want to be pursued, to be treasured by someone.

I want to be someone’s someone.

I want to have someone who is my someone.

I want someone to fight for me.

I want someone to want me.

I want someone to think the world of me.

I want someone to encourage me.

I want someone to challenge me.

I want someone with passion.

I want someone who goes for the things they want and helps me go for the things I want.

I want someone to hurt when they see me hurt, to smile when they see me happy.

I want to be all that for someone else.

I want someone to love me, and I want someone to love in return.

I am a beautiful person.

I am passionate.

I am a person of action.

I am a loving person.

I am worthy.

Why do I want this so bad? Is it even possible? Can it last a lifetime?

Is it an impossible dream?

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Do Believe......

I Believe...

I Believe...

I Believe... That just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, doesn't mean they do love each other.

I Believe...That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I Believe....That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe...That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe.... That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I Believe...That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I Believe...That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe.... That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I Believe...That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I Believe...That true Love is worth fighting for.

I Believe....That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe...That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe...That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe...That my best friend and I can do anything, or nothing, and have the best time...

I Believe...That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe...That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe...That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had, and what you've learned from them.....and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I Believe...That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe...That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I Believe...That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe...That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life Forever.

I Believe...Two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I Believe...That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I Believe...That even when you think you have no more to give, if a friend cries out to will find the strength to help.

I Believe...That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe...That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon...

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; They just make the most of everything.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Those three words above have so much power, so much meaning in my opinion. My belief is that everyone is beautiful. We all have that picture of the perfect body image in our heads. But the truth is, you will never become that person that is inside your mind. THAT is a perfect person, and NO ONE is perfect. Most of society has been conditioned to think 'beautiful' as a pretty skinny girl , an athletic guy with muscles, designer clothing, pretty much within the norm of society. I find that to be really sad.

I know it's not easy to think you're beautiful. It takes time, but ANYONE can change their thoughts. PLEASE don't make yourself throw up anymore. You ARE skinny enough, you ARE beautiful. Please don't change yourself to fit in with the 'norm' because you ARE unique, which is BEAUTIFUL. Beauty is what the heart is. If you have a heart full of love than you're beautiful, If not than you need some love.

When you wake up tomorrow, when you're at the toilet throwing up because you don't feel skinny, when you are cutting yourself to take away that emotional pain, when the memories of rape haunt you, look into the mirror and say "I AM BEAUTIFUL." I seriously want you to do that. Comment here when you did!

Why I want you to do that is because I learned something in psychology the other day. It's called 'cognitive thinking'. Cognitive thinking basically means "you are what you think you are". If you think and say your beautiful, than you'll feel beautiful for example.

Your past, and your scars tell a story which is beautiful. Your pain has a purpose. Your story is meant to be heard. You have the power to change lives, and change the world! Do it! Feel beautiful! Be proud of who you are today!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

My Dream

i have big dreams, you know.

dreams about music and writing and talking and loving.
dreams about traveling the world,

taking in the beauty,taking in the pain.
i have dreams about a world where i have self-confidence;
dreams where i am secure and composed and okay.

i have dreams in which i do everything i should.
dreams in which i am successful, optimistic; hopeful.

i have dreams about standing on stages and making music,
watching people's eyes fill with tears and joy
as they hear their own stories in my songs;their songs.

i have big dreams, you know.

i have dreams in which i can cry whenever i feel like crying;
dreams about singing when i feel like singing,
laughing when i feel like laughing,
and loving whenever and wherever somebody needs it.

i have dreams about everything being okay.
dreams about homeless people finding shelter; finding home.
dreams about hungry people eating until they are full.

dreams about thirsty people finding water.

dreams about poor people finding jobs
and security and a better future.
dreams about sick people being healed.
dreams about broken people being restored to life.

these are dreams about other people
but they are also dreams about myself.
i am those people....

sometimes i feel like i have no place to call home
i feel hungry and thirsty and poor and sick.

i feel like there is no hope for me; no future for me,
no life outside my head. i have big dreams,
you know.i hope you have big dreams too.
and i hope that you are not afraid to talk about them.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Top 8 Ways to Improve Your Luck

Have you ever wondered if you can improve your luck?

Why does one person get sick while another stays healthy? Why does one person seem to find wealth and prosperity everywhere, while another never succeeds at anything? Many believe that the answer is luck.

In order to win sweepstakes, Lady Luck has to be on your side. For your name to be the one to be picked out of hundreds or thousands of entries takes a little push from chance. Here are some of the ways that people use to improve their luck.

Positive Thinking Attracts Luck

If you are the type of person who believes that the glass is half full, not half empty, than you're already familiar with positive thinking. Studies have actually shown that being optimistic can
relieve stress and help you live longer. But can it help you to win sweepstakes, too?

Absolutely. One of the most challenging aspects of entering sweepstakes is that nagging feeling that you will never really win - or that you will never win again. It's hard to enter sweepstakes day after day with no guarantee that you'll win - and it's nearly impossible to keep it up if you have a negative attitude about it.

Accentuate the Positive with Visualization

Visualization is a technique where you picture yourself experiencing a desired event, which helps you work out the steps to make that event happen. In terms of sweepstakes, we think about winning a prize - we feel ourselves win the prize that we're dreaming about - and use that visual image to fuel our drive to win.

If you're familiar with the old Bing Crosby song, "Accentuate the Positive," it offers a similar concept. To quote the lyrics: You've got to spread joy up to the maximumBring gloom down to the minimumHave faith or pandemonium'sLiable to walk upon the scene. In other words, focus on the positive aspects of sweeping to keep charged up and motivated to win more.

More Inspirational Sweepstakes Quotations.

Affirmations Reinforce Lucky Thinking

If you watched the movie, Evan Almighty, you might have noticed that Evan's character starts every morning by looking in the mirror and saying, "I am smart, I am successful, I am happy." This is an affirmation.

Affirmations are ways of planting the seeds of success in our subconscious, helping us to think positively and to be more prepared for success. As W. Clement Stone said, "Whatever the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve."

Affirmations are always positive, in the first person, and in the present tense. You can write them out or repeat them to yourself several times each day. Some good affirmations to improve your luck might be, "I am lucky, I am open to success, I am a winner."

How to Make an Affirmation

Feng Shui Lets Luck Flow

Feng Shui is an ancient Chinese art designed to bring balance, health, and even luck to the people who practice it. Some dismiss feng shui as superstition, but the principles of this art can help you to be more productive, more positive, and less distracted.

For example, one of the principles of feng shui is that clutter has a negative effect on your energy levels. And it's true - a messy, disorganized area makes it difficult to find what you need and to concentrate on your work.

Imagine that your sweepstakes entry area is clean and tidy, everything you need within your reach. You can concentrate on your sweeps, and get more entries in less time. Can't you just feel your luck starting to increase?

More about Feng Shui and Good Luck

Lucky Charms and Rituals

Many sweepers swear that they have increased their luck by wearing a favorite pair of socks or t-shirt as they enter sweepstakes, or by having lucky symbols like four-leafed clovers, ladybugs, or even Troll dolls near their computers while they enter. Still others perform some kind of lucky rituals before they start their daily sweepstakes. But this is superstitious nonsense, right?
Not necessarily. Using lucky charms and rituals makes you feel luckier, happier, and more optimistic. This positive attitude makes it easier to keep entering sweepstakes, and thus improves your chances of winning. For more information, see
Lucky Charms Don't Work -- Or Do They?.

12 Lucky Symbols to Improve Your Luck

Increase Your Karma, Get Luckier
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Karma is one of the principle tenets of Hindu philosophy, but it can be simply summarized as, "What Goes Around, Comes Around." In other words, if you do good things, more good things happen to you and the luckier you'll be.

In sweepstakes terms, many sweepers promote good karma by
sharing trivia answers and UPC codes, posting links to new sweepstakes, and doing everything they can to help others win. While it might seem to be smarter in the short run to keep the contests and answers that you find to yourself, everyone needs some help and encouragement at some point. Helping each other to win increases the luck of the entire sweepstakes community.
Visit the Sweepstakes Forum to Spread Luck and Increase Karma

Increasing Luck Through Spirituality and Prayer

Many people turn to a greater power to help them increase their luck. Some say a prayer before they start to enter sweepstakes, asking God to help them win what they need, or to help the prize go to the person who needs it most. Some feel that asking God for specific prizes is inappropriate, but ask instead for the strength and the positive attitude they need to not give up and to keep entering sweepstakes.

Others ask the Universe to send them luck, prizes, or a positive attitude, or they use meditation to help them focus and enter more quickly and persistently.
All of these methods can have a positive effect on a sweeper's outlook, helping them feel - and be - more lucky.

Read about the Basics of Prayer

Work Harder, Be Luckier

Thomas Jefferson said, "I am a great believer in luck, and I find the harder I work, the more I have of it." It sounds almost like he could have been a sweeper! The more work you put into entering sweepstakes, the less you need to rely on luck. The amount of luck you need to win when you enter a single sweep is much greater than the amount you need if you enter a few hundred a day.

Hard work is the
secret to winning sweepstakes. By being patient, persistent, and having a positive attitude, you'll see many more lucky results with your sweepstakes entries.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

You wouldn't like me when I am angry!

Writing helps me express my emotions.~~~~~~~~~Stop me from saying things I will regret. I am the one who preaches "Sorry doesn't heal the scars."I am afraid I am about to inflict deep scars.I am very good at psychology. I can find the things that one doesn't want anyone to see, "thinks" nobody knows, take those things and CUT someone to shreds.When it comes to being mean, I am QUEEN!Yeah me. The sweet, caring, one. People have been surprised at what a sweet soul like me can be capable of.

Maybe it is because I hardly ever get mad. I am very peaceful. Like Mt St. Helen's, she rarely blows, but when she does . Or maybe it was because I was pushed very hard over and over and over and over and over................I then turned into someone they didn't know. Wished they didn't know. Although, everything I did was legal. It was still wrong. I recall this happened ONCE when I was with my ex-husband of 18 years. He said "Remind me if we ever get a divorce, NOT to f*ck with you." When we divorced, he didn't. I can make them wish, beg that I would stop being mad.I don't want to be Queen at that.It is one thing I don't like about me. For the most part, I have complete control over it.For I know "Sorry doesn't heal the scars." And I will be sorry when I am done being pissed off.I know we all make mistakes. Sometimes we just didn't stop to think about how the other person would feel.Why would I want this person to be as hurt as I am now?

Revenge is NOT sweet.
It is MEAN, evil, and wrong.
Patience, tolerance, acceptance and love is sweet.

Time to take a deep breath and bite my evil tongue.

Distant Lover

women always worry about things men forget ,
men always worry bout things women remember,
know wonder we can't come together ,
a man falls in love with his eyes,

a woman through her ears ,
the great divide is oh so clear,
women marry men hoping they will change,
men marry women hoping they stay the same,

a woman vision is deep reaching ,
a mans vision is far reaching,
listen to these words and their meaning,
opposite do attract divided we fall ,
united we can conger all ,

God in all his wisdom made it to be this way,
God knew man and woman had to be opposites,
his reason being they must learn to work as a team,
playing off the strengths of the other,

sad but true man woman have drifted away ,
each living life in their own self imposed isolation ,
to proud to come together for them selfishness rules
bickering self serving motives its all about me

know wonder stalemate often comes about,
in the form of divorce irreconcilable differences,
through inedible disappointment where is atonement,
love is forever the next time i get married it will be.

through sickness and health poorness and wealth .
please if you wish to be with me this you must not forget ,
opposites do attract trust in me you will see ,
i got your front sides and back ,

i am a poet i am a lover,i am a seer ,
i am a pleaser,such a teaser a joker,
a honey spot stroker ,
thats why i am lonely ,

wont compromised if she is to be my wife,
she must be willing to live as one in life,
whats mines is hers what hers is mines,
together we will live our world all about love,

yes it is true all i ever needed in my life ,
was one good woman to do me right,
i got what you need you got what i want,
opposites do attract